Whenever I’m asked why I enjoy being a musician, it is not for the reasons some people think. Although it would be nice to be recognized for what I’ve done, I don’t do what I do for global fame & recognition; and I, for damn sure, am not doing it to be an attention whore either. I do it because I want to connect, and I want to fit in with a community. Music has the ability to connect the soul to a moment that no other medium does. I’m honored to be talented enough to be part of musical moments that will be remembered by people for a lifetime.
Sad News Is So Public These Days
Yesterday (June 21st 2012) I heard news that a friend took his own life, at roughly 6am that morning. Why? Nobody really knows. I’ve known Jamie [Duffy] through familiar friends in the Waxtrax/TVT industry circle. He was one of those people who came into my life and then was out of it again (mostly through gigs); but I always had pleasant & brief conversations with him regardless. He was a nice guy and I had no idea he was suffering from a severe depression.
The hard part about this news is that he posted on twitter, “this is how the end begins….” with a photo of three bottles of blue sleep aid pills all emptied on a disposable plastic plate. Wow, so public, so raw. So after sharing this sad news with someone, I got the most arrogant and selfish response I’ve ever heard.
Why Musicians “Really” Do What They Do
According to this “musician” I know, being a musician is really all about, “Oh look at me. Give me attention. Me me me me me me me.” Apparently to this person a musician, or artist, offing themselves is because they felt people didn’t “pay them enough attention.” I mean, for real?
I had to laugh a little, but why did I find this funny? Well, because this rant is coming from someone who claims they’ve decided “…long ago…” they didn’t care to be that arrogant of a person. They surmised they no longer felt the need to be “an attention whore” for being an artist…which is why they “gave it up.” The irony here is that this person hasn’t given up squat; and will argue, bitch, moan & fight when they have their own little show.
Isn’t that the exact definition of being an “attention whore?”
PS: To those people out there who are going through a rough time and feel like you have no hope left to keep going. Please know you’re not alone, and before you make that decision to “go elsewhere;” reach out to someone so they can (try and) help while you’re still here.